posi

I have that word tattoo'ed  on my hip.  It is short for positive.  

Posi is a lifestyle.  A lifestyle I was living at the time I got the tattoo.

But lately (going on for months now) I haven't been true to being posi.

My tendency to worry is overwhelming me and clouding my ability to complete day to day tasks.  It is isolating me from friends and family.  It is making my usually fun and enjoyable job a responsibility I dread.  It is infecting those I love.

That is why I am really going to try and follow the posi lifestyle once again.  When every I worry, I am going to mentally counter that worry with a reason why it isn't that big of a deal, a possible solution and something good in my life.

Strong emotions like sadness, anxiety, and high stress can effect those around you.  I've noticed it at work, in my classes and at home.  

I used to be really good at convincing people that "everything is ok" I never shared with others how I really felt, I was always happy. I've become extremely readable, when I'm upset everyone can tell (facial expressions, body language, energy level, and interest).  

I'm going to try really hard to return to my "everything is ok" attitude.  If something is wrong I'm not going to let it outwardly get me down and there by not let it effect those around me.  I realize this can be unhealthy for me, but again I will counter every worry/negative thought with a decreased emphasis on the importance, a possible solution, and a positive thought.

If something is really bothering me I will keep my venting for my journal, for my sister and for my therapist because those are the three people  that I feel comfortable asking to take on my emotional baggage.

If you think you should be on that list and wonder why you aren't, it is honestly better for both of us that you aren't.  You will soon see how much happier I will be and how much more fun we will have together.